On Monday morning I got on the train from Berlin to Amersfoort. Hugged Lisa goodbye and sat down next to a Dutch man who was clearly excited to go back home again (and told me e-ve-ry-thing about his trip to the Berlin flight show).
I on the other hand, felt more like Frodo leaving the Shire, setting out to Mordor to destroy the One Ring.
My week in Berlin got me superexcited for making my dream become real life and going back made me feel like I was moving away from this dream instead of towards making it come true. And for almost seven hours of train I dwelled in this feeling of melancholy.
Now, after a week of working like crazy to get our mental health care organization an important quality mark, I’m a little confused. It’s been a great week (bit stressful, but I quite like that) and I have been looking at the place like: ‘do I want to leave this and go to Berlin?’ And I sometimes don’t know the answer. Do I stay in a safe and secure situation, or do I leave for new life experience and adventure? Do I move forward in faith? Do I stay in faith? What does God want me to do? What do I want me to do? decisions…
“It’s a dangerous business, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there’s no telling where you might be swept off to.”
~ Bilbo Baggins ~
But I know me a little by now. The hunger for adventure and new things comes with my familyname I guess. I wouldn’t be one of them if I weren’t craving a new challenge… So dreams are still being pursuit. It’s got to be done.
In order to keep the Berlin memory alive, here’s some of the local cuisine:
Looking at my pictures I found this one of the trainride from the NL to Berlin. When I took this picture I had my whole trip ahead of me still. I hope I will be in the train again sometime soon, going back to Minas Tirith, the White City.
According to the map below, I was setting out from Minas Tirith to Moria instead of Mordor. Maybe my Mordor feeling has something to do with the feeling of moving in the wrong direction… Don’t actually want to go to Moria either.
“Moria… You fear to go into those mines. The Dwarves delved too greedily and too deep. You know what they awoke in the darkness of Khazad-Dum… Shadow and Flame”
~ Saruman ~
(this quote makes clear to me why the NL is Moria on the map, since the NL is so much below sealevel that you’ll never know what people awoke there…)
“The board is set… the pieces are moving”
~ Gandalf the White ~