For a while now I’ve been kind of church-less. In Utrecht I just couldn’t find the church I felt I belonged to. My old church in Houten moved from it’s building near the station to a building in the middle of nowhere… well sort of…, which made it harder to get to. That is, among other reasons, why I didn’t go there anymore.
Since I’ve moved to Dordrecht almost two months ago, I started looking for a new church. I visited one where a lot of my co-workers go to. Nice church, nice lecture, nice people, a lot of nice things. But it’s just not my place I guess. The longer I thought about it, the more I felt it’s not the church I should go to.
So yesterday I went to another church, Crossroads Rotterdam (XRR) to be exact. I visited this church regularly a couple of years ago when I lived in Rotterdam. Since I moved back to Utrecht, I didn’t go there anymore, but still missed it sometimes. And now, living in Dordrecht, which is close to Rotterdam, I decided I should just go and check it out again. It’s only a 15 minute train ride and a 10 minute walk, so what am I waiting for? (Distances are very small in the Netherlands. An hour of traveling to get to church is crazy…)
I felt pretty lonely during the service, thought nobody would see me, when I realised God did see me. He saw I was there! He knew that I was alone and nervous. He knew I was there to find my place, to find Him.
We celebrated the Lords Supper, which was awesome. The preacher-guy, who I know from conferences and stuff and which I thought wouldn’t remember me, recognised me and smiled. After church, during coffee, I spoke to some people I know and to some I don’t, but will. I felt great! Not just God saw me, but His children as well! Jeehaa! Is this God’s way to show me that I was at the right place? Did I find my church? Is this where I’m going (back) to and spend time with my brothers, sisters and Friend?